
I've been a very bad girl. It's been almost a month since I wrote a post here. But I put the blame squarely on trying to be a proper grown-up. Evidently it doesn't suit me. Playing by the rules tends to snap back and bite me in the ass.
You see, I have no money. Nothing exceptionally new about that situation (as anyone who's followed me for some time already knows). But I'd finally resolved to go out and get a 'real' job, earn some money and focus on getting my shit together. Hasn't worked.
Blogging has been all but abandoned. Personal artwork has been shelved indefinitely. Have had no social life to speak of. It's been truly horrible and I've almost forgotten who I am. I'm so tired and fed-up with fighting to survive.
But no more. Time to be irreverent, irresponsible and ridiculous. Bollocks to getting a job in design - where I have to fight for every creative decision, where I'm working ungodly hours, where I have to wait weeks (or months) to get paid. Honestly, I don't like design
that much.
I'm returning to simple blog posts. Sorry, but no more fancy headers and image treatments. Takes too damn long. I'm just going to keep it short and simple. I'm going to look for a job, any ordinary job, where I clock on and off and leave it behind. Where I get paid regularly (even if it's peanuts), where I can be sociable and meet people.
Reflecting on my state of existence I'm somewhat mortified that I am a 27 year old impoverished artist who still lives at home with her parents and still can't drive. So I have the following resolutions:
1.
Learn to drive. Actually, I got my Learner's License right at the end of last year and have been out learning with my Dad. Need to keep the momentum up (perhaps dreaming of how I can redecorate the lil' ol' car - needs some serious lovin')
2.
Move the heck out. Which requires regular money. Obviously. Paying your own rent and bills, doing groceries and housework does wonders to your sense of self and I've missed that for the past 2 or so years.
3.
Get a job. Any job. Cafe, bar, cinema, bookshop...As long as it's shiftwork and I can work my art and studio hours around it then that's dandy.
Here goes nothing. Time to grow up - but on my own terms.